Sick

Since the weather was nice Tuesday we are back to cold and grey here in Kentucky. The problem with this is that now both Army Boy and I are sick. He is worst off than me at this point, but it is hard to deal with. I was up until 5am this morning taking care of him. I do this willingly because he does it for me as well.

The other bad thing, is that dealing with the cold, really hurts me because I have arthritis in my knees, back, hips, ankles and feet. So when it gets cold, I have trouble with stiffness and everything is sore. I hate it but I deal because well, I don’t really have much of a choice there. LOL.

Some of my new reality is that my body does not regulate temperature like it should at the moment. It has only happened a handful of times so far, with of course today being one of those days. So, I am in sweat pants, socks, and clothes to keep me warm for now. I also just turned the heat up to 73. Normally because our place is so small, we keep it at 71. Today will be a battle for sure. I am going to try and make chicken noodle soup for dinner. Not the kind from a can either. I have some left over chicken and since it is so chilly out and neither one of us is feeling well, sounds like a good dinner.

Last night I had a grilled ham and cheese that Army Boy made. He makes the best grilled cheese sandwiches! I had some left over cheesy garlic mashed potatoes for lunch. They were good, but since I am not feeling well, I only had a little bit. I am so tired still because I was up at like 9:30am with Army Boy getting ready for school. So, soon it will be nap time.

-Ciao!

The Last Few Days

The last few days have been seriously trying for me. Well us. First let me say that I have the most amazing husband in the entire world!! Last night was a horrible night for me. I was having some serious pain not only in my hips like usual, but my right knee had gone out on me a few days before and had been extremely painful and I almost got stuck in the tub because I could not put weight on it the other night. Sigh. I love sitting in the tub reading because it is peaceful for me.

Last night, I could not get to sleep because I was in so much pain and I had heartburn to burn down Texas! My hubby, who was very tired, stayed awake and rubbed my hips and knee until I was sleeping peacefully. Then he had to work tonight and went to work anyway even though he was exhausted. I really do love that man of mine.

I woke up this morning and my knee did not hurt, which was wonderful news but my hips were still painful. I am exhausted because I could not sleep last night and the workers were here today banging and so forth. Ugh. I am trying hard to stay positive during all this but some days it is hard to do. I feel horrible because Army Boy is totally exhausted and at work. The good news with that is that he got his letter from the doctor today saying he is good to go to work at the VA. His orientation starts on the 13th and school starts that day as well. So things are coming together for him!

He is studying to be a nurse, which given my health issues is probably a really great choice. New Year’s here was quiet as we stayed home, which was fine with me. Except for the fireworks at midnight it was blessedly quiet around here. The fireworks I was not expecting and of course set the PTSD off some. Ugh. I got through it but it was not really easy.

So, this new year, I did not really make any resolutions. I never keep them anyway. I am trying to make a commitment to eat better, which is hard for me. I am Southern and the kinds of food I love are fried. Plus I am a horrible junk food junkie. I have been doing pretty well. The other night we had pizza, but it was a BBQ chicken pizza and I had only 3 slices. I also had a chicken salad for dinner that night. Although I did splurge some and had some mozzarella cheese sticks. Those are my weakness! Tonight I had vegetable soup for dinner with some crackers and peanut butter. I have been snacking on raw celery and carrots as well as some plain popcorn.

I am a salty snacker. I don’t eat a lot of sweets unless I am craving them.  I know the key to anything is moderation. Normally I do not have an issue with that except for chips. You know that old commercial, ‘Bet you can’t eat just one’? Yeah unless they are talking bags, they are right! LOL. I am also making an effort to drink more water. My issue with water is that it is boring! Those additives like Mio and such, they have aftertastes that I do not like much, makes them taste like cough syrup.  I also like my water cold. My Army Boy doesn’t. So I have to add ice and since we don’t have a filter on the freezer, I can taste the chlorine in the tap water in the ice. Ugh. I have a Brita pitcher for the water and I have had it for years. I totally love it and recommend it.

I am thinking about getting a filter for the sink faucet as well. When Army Boy was in the Army, he was a Water Dog, which means he was dealing with water for his unit of they got deployed. He was in charge of drinking water and getting it filtered correctly. So, it helps now. LOL.

Well, I am going to go. I am tired.

-Ciao!

Christmas

I hope that everyone had a good and safe holiday. We did here. It was quiet, thank heavens. They are currently replacing all the outside paneling on all the buildings in my complex and of course that is not a quiet job what so ever. The issue I have with it, is that the workers just plug what ever they want into the outside outlets and have at it. Which is how we ended up with a $500 electric bill for this month. To say that we were astonished would be an understatement!! We called the electric company and he took the bill to the office immediately because well, A. we can not afford that! and B. I felt like since it was not our usage why should we pay for it? According to the office here, they are not supposed to use ANY of the outlets at all for anything. But of course the workmen do what they want.

They are here at sun up and start making all kinds of noise not long after that. Sigh. I can not wait until they are finished and move on to another building because with all the hammering, power saws, radios, loud conversations, and other various noises it makes it very hard to get any sleep what so ever!

On the good news side, the VA contacted Army Boy about the job and he went to do the physical and finger printing thing. Just waiting on the background check and the letter from the doctor saying he can do the job because of his knee. School for him starts January 13th and he is looking forward to it. So am I honestly.

Of course I did too much on Christmas day and paid for it dearly the next few days. Army Boy’s parents sent me some money for my birthday that was in October and I got a back support pillow that I have been needing and got that the day after Christmas, which is nice. I totally love it! Makes using my computer in bed so much easier for sure!

We also got his pain pills so that helps as well. For us both. I am still having massive amounts of pain, but the pills help some at least. They also help me sleep, which is also a very good thing. Tomorrow is Sunday and the workmen hopefully will be gone and Army Boy is working tonight, so he will be able to sleep at least.

I am going to run, I need to eat something.

-Ciao!

Christmas Coming

The last few days have been busy for us here because well, all of a sudden Christmas is like two days away!! My menu has been altered because  we could not find any prime rib roasts which totally frustrated me beyond belief! I mad adjustments and we are back on track. I was planning on trying out a new dip for Christmas, but decided against it because of how much cooking I am already going to be doing and I am trying hard to not have to put myself down for days afterwards because I did too much.

Tomorrow, I am basically making the twice baked potatoes. Then on Christmas, I just have to put them together and heat them through. Which will be easier on me too. We are having steak, twice baked potatoes and my ‘famous’ green beans.

Then at the same time, I guess the people here will be coming in to change the cabinets, counters, and light fixtures. The issue with this is that I had no idea that it was happening NOW. I was told THIS morning that they might be here today or tomorrow. Ugh. Nice. Only issue I have is that we were notified last week. Sigh.

I have had a pretty bad couple of days, but managed to push through them. I made slow cooker beef stew last night. It was really good, but I need to tweak the recipe some. As I might have said, the first time I make a new recipe I make it how it is written. Unless it has onion, because I am allergic. The second time, I usually start making changes if I need to with a recipe. The issue I had with this one was that it was not flavorful enough. The recipe called for 3/4 teaspoon salt, that was it. It was BLAND!!!

I am really tired today and I had a pretty bad night last night. So it is possible I might nap today. Army Boy’s parents sent me $20 for my birthday, so I got my back rest pillow which will be here the day after Christmas. They also sent us $100 for Christmas. I was not expecting the money for my birthday and I am very grateful! Speaking of Army Boy, he is today getting his physical for the VA job which is very exciting for us!

Okay, I think that is it for now. I am tired.

-Ciao!

Sick..

Lasagna did not get made yesterday because early afternoon, I got really ill. So I slept most of the day and night. This morning I put the lasagna together for my Army Boy in case I was not awake he could put it in the oven. so he would have dinner before work and have some to take for his break at work. I feel bad when I am not feeling well and I can’t make sure he has food.

This morning it should not have taken me so long to get the lasagna together, but it is finished and in the fridge. It only has to cook for an hour or so. I am doing the best I can. I am so nauseous that I can hardly stand for long periods of time. The smell of food makes me ill. It was hard to get it all working and get it together.

Thank you for the comments and the likes on my entries. I am also grateful for the new followers of this blog. I am tired and I think I need to lay down.

-Ciao!

What Life Would Be Like

If I had no struggles. I have been so busy lately with Army Boy getting a job and everything here at home falling on my shoulders, Thanksgiving, and now the ensuing craziness that is the mad dash for Christmas. I have been struggling a lot lately and not wanting to ask for help because I felt that I could handle it if I just did more.

Sadly, I forgot my reality with my heath issues. Thanksgiving was a wonderful meal that put me down for two days easily. Since Army Boy has started working I have felt bad about asking him for help because he is working a full time job and is always so tired. I feel guilty not being able to handle all the stuff here at the house. I have had a couple of bad migraines here lately complete with vomiting and dizziness, so you know they were BAD. I am struggling to be a good wife and yes, I feel horribly guilty about it too.

All of this guilt of course is kicking the PTSD into action as well, so I battle that and try to not let it show. I am constantly tired and the other night I had just enough energy to actually wash my hair but nothing else for the rest of the night. You would think I would be used to all this by now, but it is a daily struggle for me. I hate this reality.  I hate not being able to do the dishes and clean up the kitchen so when Army Boy comes home everything is clean and nice.

He does help me a lot and I feel incredibly guilty over that too. I know I should not, but I do. I feel as if I am not enough. With Christmas on the horizon, I know that if I am not careful I will be down for days afterwards. I want Christmas dinner to be good and special. Since it is just the two of us, it is not difficult to make that happen, but health wise for me, it will be a challenge.  I know I will ignore the symptoms of having done too much just like I did on Thanksgiving and do it anyway.

In this case, I feel like it will be worth it. Maybe not through because afterwards I will be useless for a couple of days and the guilt will start creeping back in and make me try to do more than I should again. It is a really vicious circle for me. So, here is to not over doing it! I am going to run, I am getting tired and need to lay down again.

-Ciao!

Birthdays and Stuff

Almost a week ago I turned 39. While it was a nice and quiet day with just Army Boy and myself, I had a small issue with the fact that I just turned 39 and in my eyes had nothing to show for my life thus far. I mentioned it to him because honestly he could see that something was clearly distressing me and he wanted to know what it was. I explained to him what I just said and he looked at me as if I had all of a sudden turned purple and grew another head.

He gently reminded me of all the soldiers I had adopted and all of the people who I had helped. That I had many friends who love me (this was in evidence on my FB page with all the birthday wishes) and while I do agree with him, I actually thought that my life would be different by now. As much as I love Army Boy and yes we do have a wonderful life, I guess that I would have more to show for my life at this point. He had some great points that made me feel better.

On the health front, I have not been feeling any better. In fact, I think I am getting sick and I am so tired. This weekend is Drill weekend for Army Boy, so it is my weekend alone for most of the time. I don’t really mind it because it is good for me to have time without him around. I am thinking it is time for a nap.

-Ciao!